Midnight Musings 2

Imagine watching a series of depressing happenings, only in this case, the actor is you.

Sometimes life deals one a serious blow, you either choose to get up or stay down flat on your face.
Mid life crisis can leave one in a state of PMS.

To go through different phases of disappointments, rejections, anxiety, restlessness, mood swings and all kinds of crazy.

Some fellow on twitter once said "why do sad people enjoy making other people sad"..You know there is nothing more depressing and energy sapping than a sad or bitter company.

In the past year I met a lot of angry women, the "victims", the self destructive, the cynics and the man eaters. I am not exactly different from these women, we all have our fair share of hurt and pain but I consciously resolved not to be in this position anymore.

When a woman is bitten every man becomes a victim, punished for the sins of another.
Going through a mid life crisis is a harrowing experience, a loss of a job, relationship, loved one, heartbreaks and all kinds of stones and spanners thrown in the wheels of your life.

Imagine the morning after a break up or being fired at the workplace, there are no right words of comfort for these experiences or explanations
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Really, its okay to be angry, its okay to rip those shirts, the pictures, letters and everything that reminds you but its not okay forever. You need to know when to cap it, when to exhale and let go.

Angry doesn't make good friends, sad people only attract sad people,the truth is no one really wants to be unhappy even if they do not exactly know what to do to be truly happy.

Having a man doesn't make happiness happier, its a beautiful experience to have someone to cuddle up with, a different sound of laughter something different from girly.
Negative expressions and confessions have a very speedy way of manifesting before positive ones you know bad things just know how to be bad.
So come on, buy a mirror and smile till your face aches and relaxes, when next you meet that guy don't be so angry, he may not have plans to ask you out but allow him some pleasantness.

Above everything, be pleasant to yourself, be true to yourself about what you got wrong or right, keep an open mind, keep your head up and do something beautiful for yourself. You deserve the world and her beauties.

Midnight Musings

Sometimes we look back at all the pain and complication and cannot remember how it got so bad. All the mistakes, all the wrongs road, the disappointments, the tears and the lies and still cannot say how we traveled so far leaving a trail of bleeding feet in these sands we hope won't forget.
We expect that our love will be reciprocated, but the only thing we get to hear is " I am sorry". How many more sorry would be sorry enough?

We expect that all our dreams will come true, but they don't quite come the way we dream, the unanswered prayers, the demands not met.

The point is we were missing something...missing understanding, freedom, clarity of vision above everything love.

When we find someone we love it is always about what we want and need, never a thought to what they want and if we fit into their plan. Love may love us but not in the way we want to be loved and that don't mean love don't love us.
We may pray so hard with conviction that we deserve answers but not exactly, are we honestly ready for that which we pray? Have we pondered on what God says?

Quitting is an option for some but the greatest healing is when we see God in ourselves, in others and in every situation. Everything is for a reason, and when we find that which we are missing, we may as well find faith in abundance and strength to consider quitting whenever we are faced with the option and say " I am sorry" but am no quitter.