streaming thoughts

I have not written for a while now.....its been crazy all the way
fixing me, fixing you and i have been thinking
not about my life necessarily but about the reason for my life
I live my life the best way i know how......not afraid of taking the wrong turns even though sometimes i wish i just knew right from start where i should apply the brakes
I still come forth after dying beneath the weight of my mistakes i soar to greatness
I cant over emphasize how much i love me, but i dare say i am the best there is and can ever be.....
Years have passed and i am still me......

i still love rock & roll, jazz, country......a lil in love with soul and R & B and still got the love for melancholic beats

i still love black, white, green, purple & blue colours

i still don't know how to scheme to get a man and i still don't know why i should not walk of a relationship when the guy doesn't fit into the plan......don't ask what the plan is

i still wish we could feed on air or maybe just eat eggs and bread

i still feel its okay to go on a date and listen to him just because he is good company and i knew since last week am not gonna date and i am going freak out if when he persists .....

i still talk all my ex like we never dated.....

i still think the bed dance is cool if the company is interesting and i still can't do it to get to point B & C....

i still believe everyone deserves care, attention, love and the benefit of doubt

i still hate to eat rice & stew without any accompanying....

i still can't sleep until its a new day.....

i still can't stand someone just knowing what am doing or where am going.....

i still loose my cool......i still crack people up by being cynical or even scare them

i still act like one with a dual personality cos its so freaking cool.....

i still believe dreadlocks are cool and spiritual and went ahead to grow them.....

i still don't know why a guy should hit me and i just watch and love him......when i can just walk

i still don't know why people strive so hard for things they can't have and are not meant to have.......i still believe if you don't have it now you don't need it

and i still love to be with that kinda guy who is just undefined, unpredictable, who will love me the way i want, let me be a kid in my within and who thinks its cool to keep my mono straps even when we are married and my camou skirt.....

i am me ......i can't be anything else, i am created to make the most of my world......to make you think these thoughts and understand that life is just beautiful and one day at a time is so cool
analyzing everything will only make you loose out even though the fast is not the best especially for you who don't have brakes.......
love quickly and be responsible for your actions cos all you did was the right thing to do especially if you didn't know different